Of witches and a particular witch's symbol

I've missed you and the bloggingz so much! I don't know if I can post often till after this quarter, when I graduate (finally!), but I wanted to pop in for a Halloween greeting.

A couple days ago I figured out what I should do for this Halloween, costume-wise I mean. I haven't gotten to craft much lately, so this also gave me a chance to crochet.

Anyone recognize this? Sorry for the quality!
(It's a 2d representation of a 3d object, so I don't blame you if you don't)

If not, follow this page (spoilers for Madoka).

Yep, it's the grief seed of my favorite Madoka witch, who's outfit (well, an anthropomorphic version of it) I can luckily pull out of my all-black closet. >:D 

Of my love for this subculture that will shine until class M stars go out

It's 2am here, but I was spurred to write this post by reading the farewell post of another lolita blog that I've loved for a long time. It made me cry, to see the blogger go, not just from lolita blogging but from lolita itself.

It made me think how I've posted much less in recent days than I want to, sewn much less than I long to. But that isn't because I'm losing interest. It's because school and chronic depression / anxiety saps so much of my energy sometimes. It's because I don't (YET) have a sewing machine with me in my apartment. It's because on the weekends I do go home, the house is always so cluttered (an ageold very frustrating problem for my house) that it's hard to find space to sew.

You have to understand, to a goth, saying "I'm leaving the [fashion/subculture/whatever]" is, well, confusing. A lot of my approach to lolita comes out of my having discovered goth first; so I don't consider it something I'll ever tire of or (Goddess forbid!) grow out of. No, I plan to grow into it. The reason--one reason--I feel so strongly about that is that I haven't really had a chance to shine in it yet! I'm still in the protostar phase, winding up my accretion nebula so that I can start nuclear fusion in my core the moment I get the chance.

That was an astronomy metaphor, yes. I love astronomy! It made me realize there is ONE thing that would make me suffer through more school after my bachelor's. And it wouldn't even be suffering! Because stars and exoplanets and nebulae and galaxies and yay!

I end up using science metaphors all the time. It's really amusing. And useful! And nerdly.

Back to my point: what I meant in that metaphor was I haven't sewn as many lolita clothes as I would need for a full "basic" wardrobe. I haven't sewn stuff to sell to my other lovelies out there either! The thing I am happy about though, is that I've been working on some other long-dreamed-of goals, such as art of my characters. My characters always inspire me, including in fashion, so hopefully I can get some fabric and start sewing soon! *dusts off ribbon-rose making skills*

(By the way, class M stars, the dim red ones, shine for like a hundred billion years, literally. The Universe is only 14 billion years old or thereabouts, so we haven't actually observed a class M star going out. They almost LITERALLY burn forever.)

Of pretty, pretty boots

Oh dear, what happened to the time? I've been caught up in a bunch of stress lately, such as school and family matters. You see, my grandmother, who was very 'classic lolita' at heart, passed away in November. So that's been....weird. And it takes getting used to.

But having my bf and my friends around, loli and non-loli, has really helped a lot to make me feel like pursuing all my creative stuff. I've wanted to post again for quite some time, just didn't have pictures of the things I wanted to show you...or I felt lethargic and only wanted to play zomg on Gaia Online. O.o (And my character's wardrobe inspireth le envy! In this goth-loli-fae-witch, that is. I want that wardrobe in real life. Soon. *scurries off to sew*)

*comes back because BLOG and also, don't have fabric* (Sadface)

You know what I really love about sewing? The dresses, or other big items like that, which i can make extremely fancy and ribbonful and darkly decadent. So i've decided I'll have much more energy and dedication to making stuff to sell if I jump right in with a few skirts. Skirts in lolita are easy to make, and easy to make adjustable (elastic waists for the win!), and the part I really love, the fancifying, can be gotten to very quickly. So watch out for updates on that.

Speaking of characters, I'm trying to make a fighter game with my magical girl team (the main characters in my stories...basically). The idea comes from my fandom I mean obsessive love of Grief Syndrome, a 2D platform game about the characters in Madoka Magica. I'll give you a few in progress sketches of Taralyn, my main main maaain character. (There are levels of main, you see. But Tara is the most main of them all. Sort of.)

Also: I GOT NEW BOOOOOTS! (From Sweetboots.com.) Proper gothy boots that lace up to the knee. I thought they'd be hard to walk in but surprisingly no. At least, they're a lot less hard than when I learned to walk in the first and much much lower heels I bought a few years ago. When I was but a mere sophomore in college.
But yeah, pic spam!!!!

I proudly sent this last one to a fellow goth who's a dear friend and slight crush of mine (so, a normal friendship for me haha), because as he says, finally getting some proper goth boots is quite a landmark. In a bout of randomness I also along with this pic told him that I had had a dream about him and his pet snake. o.O (Does anyone else love snakes too? They're so cute and mysterious, like cats.)



I went to a loli meet a couple weeks ago and will be going to another next week, but I didn't get any pictures of the first one. However, my lovely bf came with me and it was awesome. :3 I'm hoping he can be my transportation next time too, so when I remember to take pics you can see him.
I lied, actually. I got one picture.

Till next loli picspam though, I give you Sheepie.

She's wearing the scarf my sister gave me for Xmas. I love wearing it too, but it just looks so cute on my sheep. Also, here's an awesome cross necklace someone else gave me, along with another cross necklace I had made earlier.
I think it should be clear which is which. I don't work in metal so much.