Of trying to light a lighthouse

A lot of people in America (and beyond, I'm sure) are scared and sad today. I want you all to know that you're not alone. I started this blog to be a lighthouse to other aspiring, isolated gothic lolitas. To reach out and invite them to step into this world with me. And I want to be a lighthouse to so many more people as well, especially now. To women and lgbt folk and nonbinary people and POC and immigrants and Pagans and Muslims and Jews and Hispanics and the disabled and those with chronic illnesses and... To everyone who's feeling scared and alone.

I may not update very often, and I'm definitely still figuring out how to be who I want to be, but I'm here. And I want you to know you're not alone.

Of writing (of several kinds)

I don't know what it is that keeps being a block between me and this blog. Well, between me and all the things I really want to do, that I consider "me," but just...don't. I think it's fear. And for starters, I need to give myself permission to post without including pictures if I can't that day, or to talk about things that aren't strictly gothic lolita. I mean, this is a lifestyle blog, right? And there are things I want to share with you, my dear Ballroom Dancers (how I've missed you all!) that are part of my lifestyle as a goth and a lolita.

Things like being Wiccan, or queer in more ways than I can count, or well, writing. It is November, and I'm doing NaNoWriMo. It's my 6th year, I think!

I believe I've shared some art of my characters before, though I certainly don't mind doing that again. But another time perhaps. My protagonists are a group of magical girls. Most of them are gothy in some way. You have a flowy romantigoth, an oldschool industrial type, a gothic lolita who makes her own clothes, and a genderqueer girl who wears masculine EGA/Aristocrat. And they're becoming friends with Visual Kei vampires and activist faery folk, and trying to save the world.

It's going...pretty good? There are so many plotholes that I've been working on for a long time. (This isn't a new novel, though I'm using NaNo as a chance to write/rewrite it.) But I think they're finally coming through. A lot of things started to clear up when I realized what I really want to write, and what's important to me. For example, I love magical girls, and it hit me that the story flowed much better when my main character and her friends became--or you might say transformed--into them.

That's all for now, but I hope your writing and other pursuits are going well!